Our Story: Month 3

Month 3: Baby!

Age: 3 months

Weight: 14ish lbs.

Major calendar events: 2 month shots :(, first church service at Ecclesia and first few nights without Dad home

Milestones: Standing (when supported), smiling, laughing, recognizing faces and voices, will look up at you when you enter the room

Sleep: Safe to say that we're consistently sleeping from 10:00 p.m. - 7:00 a.m. at this point. She is still sleeping in her pack n play in our room; she rarely naps by herself during the day.

Likes: Watching TV... okay looking at ANY screen! She's obsessed! I try not to let her though...Bath time is also something that she likes. No matter how hungry or fussy she is, she is always happy in the bath (and always likes to lick the water! She laps it up like a dog when Ryan sprays the shower head near her face).

Dislikes: There isn't too much that Heidi doesn't like right now...

Best moment: I suppose our best moments this month mostly include successfully doing things on our own such as galleria trips, lunching with friends and going to the grocery store. It was also a pretty sweet moment when Ryan came home a night early from a work trip :)

Worst moment: By far the number one worst moment happened during one of our grocery store trips. I always wear Heidi in the Boba wrap, and am very cautious when moving around and bending over, etc. Well, we had finished our shopping went out to the parking lot to load up the groceries. It was the middle of the day and hot as heck! I was in a hurry and squatted down to grab the water out from underneath the back of the cart. I stood straight up and RAMMED her head SO hard on the handlebars. Poor poor baby had been sleeping and woke up and started crying (I'm surprised she wasn't screaming! She was really hardly even crying). I KNOW this is a first for every parent, whether its a door frame, car door, whatever it is... and I knew that one day I would accidentally do something like this, but that doesn't change how bad and how guilty you feel when it happens! I could see a big white spot with a little scrape in the middle of it. I immediately called Ryan and told him what happened. Heidi wasn't crying and she appeared alert. I then called my mom and started sobbing haha. She recommended I call the pediatrician just to make sure. I half expected them to tell me to bring her in right away. (I tried very hard not to sound like a crazed panicky new mom haha.) They basically said to look out for vomiting, refusing to eat and acting lethargic (but since babies sleep all the time sleeping is not a symptom you can really count on.) I expected her to have a HUGE knot on her head by the time we got home, however no knot appeared and it didn't appear to be swollen or have any fluid around it. Baby girl took it like a champ and must get her thick skull from her mom. Thank goodness everything was okay and she didn't even have much of a mark - just a little red spot for a day or two. I'm so sorry baby Heidi!

Eating: 100% breastmilk, every 3 hours

Things I want to remember: Not that there wasn't anything memorable that happened, but nothing specific comes to mind...

Month 3: Mama

I can honestly say, weeks 8-12 have been SO different for me. I feel like a normal human being again. Don't get me wrong, we are still a ways off from knowing any sort of "normal", but as far as how I feel...emotionally...I don't feel like a complete hormonal basket case anymore. I am able to function. Go to the grocery store, go to the mall... and sleep longer than just a few hours at a time! (One night, I fell asleep on my stomach AND slept for longer than 5 hours. OH MY GOSH. 9 months ago I thought neither of those things would ever ever happen again!!)

However, there are of course still plenty of stressful/overwhelming/difficult moments... Although this is laughable now, I was NOT laughing at the time this happened. I had gone to Target to buy a new swimsuit because these jumbawumbas don't fit into anything these days. I tried on a few and wasn't super pleased with how they were fitting. Regardless, I snapped a few pics to get my mom, sister and Ryan's opinions (I can't make a single fashion decision on my own - it's a problem!) Well, I hit send and glanced for a millisecond at the photo of my chest as it was sending. OH $#!%!! I felt my milk starting to let down. Just LOOKING at the picture of my own boobs in a bikini top is all it takes people. I knew I had literally 5-7 seconds to get that swimsuit top off before it was too late..."Get it off!! Get it off!! Get it off!!" I was about 1 second too late. I yanked that thing off so fast, but just as I tore it off, my milk started spraying EVERYWHERE! I felt like a Fembot from Austin Powers... I had no idea where to even aim those babies and my bra and boobiepads were buried underneath my shirt on the bench. I got some breast milk on the swimsuit, some on my leg/foot and the rest was shot onto the carpet. Sorry bout that Target... I probably would have bought the swimsuit just to have in case I didn't have time to find something else... but regardless I ended up buying the swimsuit anyway. Once I had found one I liked better from Victoria's Secret, I carefully washed the breastmilk-y Target swimsuit in the sink while holding the tag out of the water and then returned it. That's all it takes to make that milk start flowing! NEW MOM PROBS YALL.

Me in Target. Well... all the time really.

The last month has been amazing, and I feel like we have finally been able to truly enjoy our time with this sweet angel baby (now that we are normal humans again). It's not always perfect, but we're learning. I wouldn't change a thing. Here are some pictures from Heidi's 3rd month with us!