Showing posts with label divorce. Show all posts
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Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Christmas Season Pain

Is this season a time of joy or a time of pain for you? This Christmas will probably be the hardest one of my life to date. Often, if feels like more than I can physically and emotionally bear. It's too much for me. I have spent the last month begging Ryan to just let us leave. To spend Christmas away from here so that I don't have to face it. (And to be honest, there is still a part of me holding out that maybe tomorrow we will just pack up and peace out of Houston.) If this time of year brings you anything BUT joy (and a little "healthy" amount of stress) and you just feel like telling someone about it, I would love to chat with you and hear all about it.
This prayer from church this past Sunday helped me a lot. Helped me to not feel quite so alone. And even though I still want nothing more than to run...at least there is hope in Jesus Christ.
"Sometimes we miss the Christmas season. There’s a lot of joy, a lot of excitement, a lot of anticipation for the good good things. One thing that we tend to forget, in the Old Testament between Genesis and Exodus, there were 400 years that passed and for that time God’s people were in slavery. Between the Old and New Testament, another 400 years and God’s people were basically in slavery in Rome in their own land. During those times when they thought of anticipating the coming of the Messiah, it was for freedom. It was that the suffering would end. So often at Christmas we know this can be a lonely and sad time for many people. We know some of those people personally. For many of us, it’s a time that brings great joy and we should celebrate that. It’s amazing and we are blessed to feel that way. For others, the coming of the Messiah means that there’s hope. There’s hope that it won’t always be that way. There’s hope that this broken world we’re in might change…
…Maybe you’re in that time of joy and everything is as it should be and hallelujah. Hallelujah! But maybe you or somebody you know might not be feeling that way this Christmas and maybe we can pray for them. Maybe we can sing these words for them that they would anticipate the coming of the Messiah because it would be a time for hope. A time that assures them that it won’t always be this way…
Father we are grateful, so grateful for the promise of your coming and your coming again. This world is broken, this world has so many problems but you are good and you have promised your salvation. You’ve promised deliverance from all the things that are broken in this world. So Father we love you. We are excited to celebrate your coming. We pray for those who aren’t feeling the excitement and the love this season. We pray that you would show it to them in an amazing way."
Thank you for this prayer Chad.


Monday, November 15, 2010

The Day I Never Knew I Was Waiting For

Relief. Happiness. Joy. Sadness. Mournful. Weird. Excited. Abandoned. Independent. Strange. Angry. Proud. Emotional. Peaceful. Tumultuous. Free.

Today was... a day that we all have been waiting for. A day that, less than 1 year ago I would have bet my entire life that I would never see. A day that I spent 23 1/2 years hoping I would never see, but yet, found myself counting down to. It's finally here, and I'm okay with that. Ready in fact, and certainly relieved. A weight lifted from everyone's shoulders. Today, my parents got divorced.

I am so proud of my mom. She is the single most amazing lady on this earth. I can't even begin to imagine the strength that it takes to pick yourself up, along with all of the thousands of broken pieces, and to make it out alive. In fact, more alive than ever. My mom is so unbelievable strong, and I am so excited for her to start her new life.