So
I have been super slacking on the pregnancy updates lately. Why is this? Well,
on top of being super busy ALWAYS... this pregnancy has been... insanely
uneventful. I thought my first pregnancy was as easy as it got... well somehow
this one has been even easier and thus way less "exciting". As I have
said before though...this is not something I am complaining about ;).
Major events: KHS homecoming; Beau's 2nd Birthday Party; Our 3rd Wedding Anniversary!
Size of baby: Lemon
Sleep: Bad. So tired...I just still can't believe that I'm already up 1-3 times per night to pee. Gah!!
Cravings: None
Aversions: None
Movement: Since I started feeling Heidi move right around 14 weeks, I have been trying to pay EXTRA attention this last week to see if I can feel baby moving...There have been a few moments prior where I thought MAYBE... but those moments usually aren't validated until you get that first real JAB. And that came on the night of our 3 year anniversary! So exciting! We were just sitting on the couch and I felt a tiny "flick" from the inside and I was positive that at that time it was baby.
Belly button in or out? In!
Weight gain: 5ish lbs.
Missing: Sleep. And white wine sometimes. Also, cold deli meat sandwiches! Listeria is commonly found in deli meat (among other things) and pregnant ladies aren't supposed to consume deli meat unless it is heated to "steaming"... most normal healthy people can fight listeria off no problem (and maybe not even know it) but during pregnancy, the immune system is somewhat compromised and listeria can be deadly to the fetus. Sometimes I just risk it and give in to the temptation, but when I actually sit and think about what the potential risk is... it's just not worth it.
Hardest part of this week: At my 12 week appointment, my doctor told me that I am a carrier for Cystic Fibrosis. (For some reason, this was not something that we tested for during my first pregnancy.) I have been so overwhelmed, stressed out and consumed by this news. Ryan went in to get some bloodwork done so that we can determine whether he is also a carrier. (1 out of every 25 caucasians is a carrier for CF. If BOTH parents are carriers than each pregnancy has a 1 in 4 chance of resulting in a child who HAS CF.) It was so scary to hear my doctor say words like "genetic counseling" and "amniocentesis"... I just wasn't expecting any surprises (at least of this sort) after already having one baby. I told myself I wouldn't do any research, or google searches or anything like that until we knew the results of Ryan's tests and what our chances of having a child with this disease were. We turned to our church small group and asked for prayer and I also asked the ladies in my bible study and friends in our church play group to pray for us. This kind of leads me to the best part of my week...
Best part of this week: After our "people" started praying for us, I felt this wave of relief come over me. It truly was a weight lifted off of my shoulders and I no longer felt like I was trapped in this swarm of "what if" stress. I started sleeping again (well, as well as I could anyway!) and no longer was just laying in bed at night thinking about all of the possibile outcomes, how this would affect our future family planning, etc. I have NEVER felt prayer in this particular way before. God gave me this strength and faith that I didn't know I had and I trusted Him fully with the situation. That feeling of submission, release and TRUE PEACE was like nothing I had experienced directly and so immediately before. Anyway, we finally found out this week that Ryan is NOT a carrier for Cystic Fibrosis - this was an incredible incredible relief. I am SO grateful to all who were praying for us and that God heard our prayers! I am not usually one to ask for prayer, or volunteer some random struggle or issue that I am dealing with during "prayer request" times, but I do think that God was using this experience to teach me the importance of prayer - not only praying ourselves, but having others pray FOR us.
Looking forward to: Finding out the gender! (Although, I do feel less impatient about it this go-round. I'm pumped, but I'm not feeling desperately anxious.)
Emotions: Luckily, I feel like the negative emotions (aka extreme moodiness/anger/frustration) have subsided. I feel much more like my normal self, although I do remember being much more weepy in my second trimester with Heidi... so I am bracing myself for that!
Major events: Birth Without Fear Conference!
Size of baby: Apple
Sleep: Still not great... but I am noticing a slight increase in energy. It was difficult for me during the first trimester to determine whether I was just tired from being a person/mom or if it was actually the pregnancy that was contributing most to that... I can now say definitely that MOST of that had to do with being pregnant - which is good news! Glad to feel less exhausted now...
Cravings: None
Aversions: None!
Movement: Meh... a few little pops here and there, but at this point I pretty much have to be sitting/laying very still in a quiet room in order for there to be a chance to feel anything... and even then it's no guarantee! It's strange going through this now after having already gone through it once. I forget that things aren't immediately like they are in the end, if that makes sense. My memories of being pregnant are mostly of what it is like to be pregnant in the end - so super roly poly, baby constantly moving and squirming and taking up 90% of your torso, not being able to bend in the middle... all of that. I forget that pretty much the first half of pregnancy isn't really THAT different than not being pregnant (at least for my 2 pregnancies so far)!
Belly button in or out? In!
Weight gain: 5 lbs.
Missing: Not much...
Best part of this week: Getting to spend a whole day talking and learning about pregnancy, birth, babies, motherhood and how to support each other at the BWF conference meet up! And also getting to spend time with sweet friends - coffee dates and going to the Woodlands Children's Museum!
Hardest part of this week: Nothing specific
Looking forward to: SUPER looking forward to our gender ultrasound day - not only because we will find out the gender but because Ryan is staying home from work and we are planning a really nice day together! We get to drop Heidi off at MDO together, go to brunch, go to our Dr. appt., pick Heidi up together... etc! I'm really excited to spend the day together!
Emotions: Excitement!
Major events: Gender ultrasound; Baylor football game vs. WVU
Size of baby: Avocado
Sleep: Meh.
Cravings: None
Aversions: Fish (specifically Salmon, but also shrimp... since that's what we usually eat when we are eating seafood)... mostly just the smell at this point... Anything that smells kind of fishy is magnified times 1,000... and to me it just smells like dirty rotting fish that has been sitting in a plastic bag in the sun for 3 weeks. It's too strong yuck! But I will still eat it after it's cooked...
Movement: Yes! Not regularly yet but... definitely some movement...
Belly button in or out? In woo woo!
Weight gain: 5-7 lbs.
Missing: Nothing I suppose...
Best part of this week: Gender ultrasound - Woo Woo! (Click HERE for the results!!!!) and getting to spend some time meeting other "young couples" at a dinner hosted by the pastor of a church we have been attending!
Hardest part of this week: This was a great week!
Looking forward to: Naming our baby! Ryan is a classic over thinker so he refuses to commit until a zillion hours of consideration have been put into this... I guess we still have a few months to decide... but I want baby to have a name NOW!
Emotions: Feeling happy! Pregnancy is totally my jam and I am so excited to do it again!
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